The College Diaries: My Freshman Year

“Man I love college.” -Asher Roth

I remember when I heard the words to Asher Roth’s song about college while I was in high school. It made me so excited to start college and have the time of my life. I thought that college would be the time that I would get to move out and make great friends and memories. And then when I decided to go to Georgia State, I was even more excited. I would be able to live downtown, I would make cool, urban friends, I would be in my element.

But then I realized that I would have to live at home and…commute. I was disappointed to say the least. All those visions I had of myself being free and happy while living in the city came crashing down. The horrible truth that I would have to live with my overbearing, overprotective, strict parents for the next 4 years tormented me all summer long. At the end of the summer, I said goodbye to my friends as they packed up their belongings and moved away to school while I returned home to the room that I shared with my younger sister.

While I was saddened by the fact that I would have to commute school, I decided to make the best of my situation and still have a good time. I thought that I would still be able to enjoy myself despite the fact that I didn’t live on campus. Boy, was I mistaken. Commuting to school was the worst experience ever. I had classes early in the morning so I had to get up at around 6 so I could take the train and make it downtown on time. My classes were also pretty close to each other so I didn’t have time to walk around and meet new people. By the time my classes ended in the late afternoon, I was tired and just wanted to lay down. Obviously, I did not make any friends during my freshman year. I was so miserable and lonely. I would always see people walking around and eating and laughing with their friends and I had none. The fact that I had absolutely zero friends depressed me. Most days, I would go to school and I wouldn’t speak to a single person.

I remember just wishing that things would get better and I would meet people and make friends. But that never happened.

Needless to say, my freshman year was not the best year. Not even close. But did things turn around during my sophomore year? I’ll discuss that in my next College Diaries post. Until next time.

-Cynthia

Let the Church Say Amen

“But in my distress I cried out to the Lord; yes I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears.” (Psalms 18:6)

Y’all. (Yes I had to pull out my southern drawl for this one.)

When I tell you that the Lord is good….He is so GOOD! He heard my cries and has answered my prayers. As a poor college student, one of the things that I really want is a job. I want a way to earn money and experience while I’m in school. That’s definitely not unusual for any college student. All of the ones that I know would do anything for a job. I had a really brief stint at a clothing store at the mall but that didn’t work out. Once that job was over, I started looking really hard for a new job and one that was preferably pretty close to campus.

So anyways, at the end of the summer semester of 2013, I noticed that the bookstore at my school had a sign saying that they were looking for help. Y’all, when I tell you I ran in that store so fast to find out how to apply, I am not even playing. I applied once I finished talking to an associate, and within two weeks they hired me as a temp.

One thing you should know is that at the bookstore, we have something called Rush. Rush is basically the week before school starts (Pre-Rush), the first week of school (Rush), and the second week of school (Post-Rush). These three weeks are extremely busy. There are thousands of students coming in to buy textbooks, return textbooks, pick up orders, complain about orders, etc etc. So a bunch of temps are hired in order to help with the flow of things. After this three week period, most of the temps leave and the manager may hire a few temps permanently if he/she so desires. Fall 2013, when I started working, I first had to go through a two week orientation. It was here that everyone was told that there was a possibility that they would get hired permanently after rush. So after the three week rush period my manager called me into his office and gave me this whole spiel about how he’s going to have to cut down hours and told me that he would call me back if he needed me. I was disappointed of course, but I was only a temp and I knew that there was a possibility that I wouldn’t get hired permanently.

Anyways (fast forward to the better part of the story) I got called back to work for Spring 2014 rush. I did an awesome job this year (if I do say so myself) and my manager hired me! I think there were a lot of factors that caused my manager to choose to hire me. For one thing, I already had the experience and I knew how to do my job and do it well. I wasn’t new and uncomfortable like last semester. I knew exactly what needed to be done and I just went ahead and did it. Also, I made sure that I was friendly with the people whose opinions would matter. Those people being my manager, my team lead, and my team members who were already permanent employees. I was polite, I smiled, I spoke to everyone, I did my job. At the end of the day though, I am just so grateful that I was hired. I didn’t realize how much I loved my job until today when I realized that I wanted to be hired so badly.

Remember back in my Reflections post when I talked about becoming more self sufficient? Yea…that’s God for you. I just thank God and the heavens for answering my prayers. He has truly heard my cries.

-Cynthia

The College Diaries: Entry #1

As I have mentioned before, I am currently a sophomore in college. I’m studying English with a concentration in Pre-Education and I’m also thinking about minoring in Spanish. With that being said, college is hard work. It’s not hard in the sense of the academics is difficult, but it’s more the independence and the responsibility that is placed upon me as a college student. I’m expected to do so many things on my own now – study, homework, study groups, contacting my professors – and I have no idea how to do it all. It’s like I’m expected to be this adult but in my mind, I’m still this young, impressionable, hormonal kid. I don’t think I ever transitioned from child to adult and it’s really hindering…everything.

I want to be a grown up. I really do. I want to be able to do things on my own without anyone giving me step by step directions while holding my hand. When I think about the situation that I am in, I always tell myself, “Cynthia, it’s time to act like an adult.” I mean like, come on. I’m in college studying to be an English teacher, yet I can’t even get my own mess together. I wish there was a guide book to this. A ” How to be a Grown Up 101″. Maybe then I’d finally be able to get my ish together.

-Cynthia

Appreciating the Little Things.

I don’t think that I take enough time out to just sit back and appreciate everything, especially the little things. I know that God has my back on so many things but I take so much of it for granted. Just two weeks ago in my Reflections post, I was talking about how I wanted to become more self sufficient and I didn’t want to have to ask my parents for everything. 

Now, I work in the city, but I don’t have a car which means I have to take public transportation to work. Now a few days before my first day back, I realized that I didn’t have any money on my bus card. I was starting to get upset because I realized that I would most likely have to ask my dad for $20 so I could get to work. But when I say that God was looking out for me, he was. I suddenly received a check in the mail for $20…the exact amount that I needed to get to work. 

Now someone might read this and say, “Cynthia, that was just your little overtime check, that was NOT God!” But I know that He was looking out for me. I don’t know. I just took it as a message that God knows exactly what I want to accomplish this year and He is on my side and will help me along the way. I guess it all depends on how you look at things. But for me, that $20 check, which most people wouldn’t have appreciated, was the sign from God that I needed. 

I am so thankful for God and all that He’s done for me. I pray I see more of his miracles throughout the year.

-Cynthia

New Year Fashion

Yesterday was the first Sunday of the New Year so of course, I wanted to look my absolute best. Here’s a picture of the outfit that I put together for church.Image

This dress is so gorgeous and once I laid eyes on it, I had to have it.This is a 3-quarter sleeve, Aztec tile print, bodycon dress. I first saw it in the Macy’s catalog that came to my house and immediately jumped on the computer to order it. I like this dress because it hugs my body in all the right places, but it isn’t too tight or revealing. The dress is on the lengthy side, stopping under my knees. I usually prefer my clothes to stop right above or at my knees, but I actually liked the length of the dress.

While I liked the dress on it’s own, I chose to pair it with my white blazer. I got this blazer quite a while ago in early 2012 and it’s still as sturdy as ever. This blazer has really held up throughout the year and I love pairing it with a lot of my outfits.

For shoes, I wore a pair of simple black, suede wedges. I didn’t accessorize with any jewelry because the dress spoke for itself. I didn’t feel the outfit needed anything else. I adored this outfit and I felt so pretty. I can’t wait to explore more outfits during the year and I’ll be sure to share.

And because I don’t think I ever said it, Happy New Year!

-Cynthia

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Dress: Macys.com ($44.00)

Blazer: H&M (Price Unknown)

Bucket List

I recently came across 365 Writing Prompts on the WordPress website and decided to go ahead and take on one of the prompts for today’s post. The prompt is actually for yesterday’s date, but whatever. It asked what the 11th thing on my bucket list was which made me realize that I don’t even have one. I remember having a list of things that I wanted to do before I started college, but I ended up losing it and not accomplishing anything.

But anyways, I decided to go ahead and make a list of some of the things that I want to accomplish in my life. Nothing on this list is huge and drastic, such as go skydiving or bungee jumping. But they are small things that are meaningful to me. So here goes.

  1. Get a passport and travel the world. I want to visit foreign places and learn about the different people and cultures. This world is way too big for me to just stay in the USA my entire life.
  2. Graduate from college – undergrad and graduate school. It would make me as well as my parents extremely proud.
  3. Join the Peace Corps.
  4. Start a program that can help the homeless.
  5. Get a tattoo.
  6. Fall in love.
  7. Get married and start a family.
  8. Learn how to drive stick shift.
  9. Become a great, influential teacher.
  10. Go on a mission trip.
  11. Visit Haiti.

I really hope that I can accomplish everything here on my list and so much more throughout my life.