I can’t believe it’s been seven months since I’ve last updated my blog. Life has definitely gotten in the way and prevented me from taking time out of my busy schedule to reflect and release. I wish I hadn’t allowed myself to be so consumed with my daily life because I can now feel its effects on my mental health and clarity. This is the main reason why I started this blog in the first place; to give myself a place and time to declutter my mind in order to stay focused and mentally clear.
So much has happened in the past seven months and I wish I had taken out the time to write things down, meditate on them, and grow from them. I truly believe that when things are visible, when one’s thoughts are plainly laid out in front of them, that is when real change can happen. You can see what you did, where you went wrong, meditate on your thoughts and actions, and develop as a person.
Although I have denied myself the privilege of recording the actions, feelings and thoughts of the past seven months, I can confidently say that I have grown and changed as a person. I can feel myself coming more into my own as time moves forward. I am not 100% sure about myself, nor do I think I will be anytime in the near future. But I can say that I am more sure about myself today than I was seven months ago and I am positive that I will be more sure about myself seven months in the future than I am today. That is the beauty of life. We are given endless opportunities to grow, change, fail, succeed, and mold ourselves into the type of spirit that we would like to embody and inevitably become.
I know now what needs to be done going forward. I can’t deny myself the opportunity of written word. Writing is where I can find myself, where I can learn exactly who Cynthia is and who Cynthia can become. I do plan on continuing this as time moves on. This is the one resolution I have for the upcoming year: to write. For when I write, I grow, I learn, I change, I become. And that is what I aim to do, not only next year, but in all the years to come.
As this will be my last post of the year, I will end by saying Merry Christmas, Happy New Years, and I will see you all in January.